Posts tagged clothing

 I went to the store to buy more superlovelyamazinglywarm guy’s flannel shirts (yes, I wear them and I adore them) and the salesguy asked me if I was trying on shirts to buy for a boyfriend and using myself to find the size….haha bitch no. these shirts are for me. screw boyfriends, I just want insanely comfy and oddly cute guy’s clothing.

p.s. how come they do not make nice warm and actually solid flannel shirts “for girls”? cause I would buy them if they weren’t way more expensive like girl’s clothing usually is.

p.p.s. screw unnecessarily gendered clothing. “girl’s” clothing should not be more expensive and less well made.

I just spent an hour reading fashion blogs. And I have free time. This will almost definitely end with me looking ridiculous. 

Screw the weather. So what if its only 60? I’ll live.

Today, my self confidence has disintegrated to a small pile of moldy crumbs, my self image is some disgusting whale who ought to wear a bag over her head in public, I can’t support one of my best friends or stop her from hurting herself, my family is half shattered and falling apart and I have lousy grades.

Yeah, it’s been just great.

And you know what the tipping point for me was? Discovering that I’m not just a Large, or and X-large, but an XX-Large in shirts (which are still pretty tight on me). What the hell. Did the world shrink? Or did my body just catch up to my mind’s image of how disgusting I am? Do you have any idea how hard it is to keep a “positive image” of yourself while knowing that many people consider you fat, frumpy and ugly?

Talk about shit I don’t need right now.